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T O D A Y January 20th 2020

January 20, 2020 Comment : 1

Today.

Today is the day I put one foot in front of the other and realized it’s okay to ask for help.

Today I went to the doctor, but it wasn’t like any other doctor visit.

The past few months I have been struggling.

I have experienced some of the best moments of my life however I have also been through some of the worst.

Details aside, I knew I needed help.

I couldn’t keep telling myself I could do it alone, I couldn’t keep living day by day knowing I am not being the best version of myself.

It has affected my home life, my work life, and over all my quality of life.

The “it” I am referring to is Postpartum Anxiety.

Some of you may be questioning what that even means, may even be correcting me to say postpartum depression. However anxiety and depression are very different.

Depression is more of a mood.

Symptoms of Depression
• depressed mood
• lack of interest in enjoyable activities
• increase or decrease in appetite
• insomnia or hypersomnia
• slowing of movement
• lack of energy
• feelings of guilt or worthlessness
• trouble concentrating
• suicidal thoughts or behaviors.

Anxiety on the other hand is a little different, more of a feeling.

Symptoms of Anxiety Disorder
• excessive worry
• restlessness
• being easily fatigued
• trouble concentrating
• irritability
• sleep disturbance
• muscle tension.

Having a child comes with its own set of worry, however adding anxiety to the mix can become very overwhelming.

I am constantly worried,irritable, and stressed. I can’t seem to ever feel at ease or calm. I struggle to sleep at night because I am worried and always overwhelmed.

But today…

Today it the day I change that.

I am better than anxiety, I can be better, I will be the best version of myself.

I share this with you all in hopes to help someone else step out of their comfort zone and realize it’s okay to not be okay.

It’s okay to ask for help. It doesn’t mean you are a bad mom, it just means you are trying to be the best version of yourself for your littles 🤍

Do you have any postpartum struggles? Share them in comments or visit me on Instagram and comment there!

Talk soon!

XOXO

I V Y L O W E R Y

L I F E

Y O U are B E A U T I F U L

January 9, 2020 Comment : 1

She is skinny.
You are curvy.

She has curly blonde hair.
You have straight brown hair.

She is outgoing.
You are shy.

She makes friends easy.
You struggle to keep them.

She is struggling in school.
You have already graduated.

She is not sure of her career path.
You are already in yours.

She has a social life.
You would rather stay home.

She wears makeup to feel pretty.
You wear makeup to cover your scars.

She is struggling.
You are struggling.

No matter what is on the outside, it’s what is in the inside that matters.

Stop comparing yourself to everyone else!

You don’t need to be beautiful like her, be beautiful like you!

JUST BE Y O U!

life can be so overwhelming at times, often find yourself comparing your life to someone else… STOP!

You will never be that person, you are uniquely YOU for a reason!

Shine your own light, lead your own army, and love each other!

You are BEAUTIFUL!

B A B Y

Becoming a Mother

December 29, 2019 Leave a Comment

I saw someone wrote a few days ago that “If being a mother means one thing, it means sacrifice”

One of the greatest most rewarding sacrifices of all time is bearing a child and becoming a mother.

Becoming a mother has been the best blessing I have ever received.

Being able to conceive a child is a miracle in its self and having the ability to carry a child that my husband and I created is one of the best feelings in the world.

Going through pregnancy wasn’t always rainbows and butterflies.

In fact, the reason I found out I was pregnant all started from acne.

I never had acne growing up (blessed, I know) so when I noticed a few pimples on my face I knew something was up.

Then from acne was night sickness (morning sickness just at night, duh!) but most days it was more day + night sickness (that sucked). I couldn’t hold anything down, I lost my appetite, and you know when you throw up so much your abs hurt (like the nonexistent abs… the ones you wish you had… yeah those things!). It seriously was the worst nausea I have ever experienced.

Although the nausea went away by the 2nd trimester it was a rough few weeks, loosing a total of 14 lbs while growing a whole human inside of me.

I was sure to gain it back fairly quick though so don’t you worry!

Although my struggles may seem small to someone else, they were big to me! They were big until I got diagnosed with PUPPPS….

If you don’t know what PUPPPS stands for…

PUPPPS: Pruritic urticarial papules and plaques of pregnancy (PUPPP) rash is an itchy rash that appears in stretch marks of the stomach during late pregnancy.

U G H !

This made the last few weeks of my pregnancy M I S E R A B L E!

I was constantly itching, like I had the chicken pox. I would itch my belly on one side, then the other side would itch, then my legs would itch then my entire body would just crave the sensation of being itched… terrible I know.

They say don’t scratch, it makes it worse..

VERY TRUE!

But at that moment in time there was literally no way on Gods earth I wasn’t going to scratch, it felt like I was paralyzed until I itched. It was the worst!

Along with that my body felt like it couldn’t be stretched anymore, the stretch marks were growing, my confidence was gone, my belly pictures were no more..

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