Today.
Today is the day I put one foot in front of the other and realized it’s okay to ask for help.
Today I went to the doctor, but it wasn’t like any other doctor visit.
The past few months I have been struggling.
I have experienced some of the best moments of my life however I have also been through some of the worst.
Details aside, I knew I needed help.
I couldn’t keep telling myself I could do it alone, I couldn’t keep living day by day knowing I am not being the best version of myself.
It has affected my home life, my work life, and over all my quality of life.
The “it” I am referring to is Postpartum Anxiety.
Some of you may be questioning what that even means, may even be correcting me to say postpartum depression. However anxiety and depression are very different.
Depression is more of a mood.
Symptoms of Depression
• depressed mood
• lack of interest in enjoyable activities
• increase or decrease in appetite
• insomnia or hypersomnia
• slowing of movement
• lack of energy
• feelings of guilt or worthlessness
• trouble concentrating
• suicidal thoughts or behaviors.
Anxiety on the other hand is a little different, more of a feeling.
Symptoms of Anxiety Disorder
• excessive worry
• restlessness
• being easily fatigued
• trouble concentrating
• irritability
• sleep disturbance
• muscle tension.
Having a child comes with its own set of worry, however adding anxiety to the mix can become very overwhelming.
I am constantly worried,irritable, and stressed. I can’t seem to ever feel at ease or calm. I struggle to sleep at night because I am worried and always overwhelmed.
But today…
Today it the day I change that.
I am better than anxiety, I can be better, I will be the best version of myself.
I share this with you all in hopes to help someone else step out of their comfort zone and realize it’s okay to not be okay.
It’s okay to ask for help. It doesn’t mean you are a bad mom, it just means you are trying to be the best version of yourself for your littles 🤍
Do you have any postpartum struggles? Share them in comments or visit me on Instagram and comment there!
Talk soon!
XOXO
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